Grargh. So yeah, my life certainly has not been conducive to writing really long posts about what's been a'shakin' with me and my life. Hell, I hardly keep my father informed of what I'm doing. Which should be a very belated New Year's Resolution, but probably won't be. Cause laziness is what college life, for the most part, is all about.

At whatever time this afternoon when I actually began writing this post, I was planning on pouring out my soul and having another angsty rant. But at this point, thanks to various friends and allies, my reverie has been broken. My conscience is in no way lighter, because some of the things that I am pondering have to do with future career choices (which I will get to in due time). The immediate things, however, are basically solved. Which consist of me trying to convince my friends that YES I am an introvert, and YES sometimes I don't want to talk, but NO it's not because I don't love you. So accept it. Get over it. Don't think that because I tend to hang out with people other than you that it's because I'm growing dissatisfied. Others sometimes can actually give me whatever it is that I need, even if I don't know it at the time.

As Dean from Venture Bros. once so wisely said, "I dare you to make less sense." I may or may not have just done that.

In other words and worlds, things in life are going well. This semester is almost over (and by almost, like, 1/2 over), and classes for next year are being planned out. I, like my industriously awesome cohort rasphigi</lj>, will be living up the apartment life very soon. And I really could not be happier about it. The time has ended for the residence hall life. Lord, the drama here is surely much worse than it is off-campus. The downside is that to on-campus people, being off-campus means that you are basically non-existent. Gah. Anyways. Apartment to myself (besides my astoundingly awesome roommate) is going to beeetchin'.

Other than that, I am outside now because this campus is gorgeous in the spring. Especially with the weather right now. Sunny, which is how I naturally like it, but not hot yet. Still cool enough to bear. In other words, perfect.

My general mood right now is more anxious than anything else. Me and my partner in crime, Melanie, are waiting to find out if the undergraduate research project she and I want to do in Germany over the summer will get the funding that we need. To be in Munich, Germany for two weeks couning plane tickets, living expenses, admission fees, and food stipends, it's gonna cost a very shiny new penny. And if we don't get the funding we asked for, then the whole trip may be in jepoardy. Both of us are poor college students, after all, and being at a liberal arts college sure does drain one of one's funding. So a $5,000 endeavor is not something we could do by ourselves. I doubt that my current net worth is more than that.

But yeah. Life is pretty fantastic otherwise. Allen and I had our one year anniversary pretty recently. He came down to Misipah with me to meet my mom's boyfriend of 10 years, Tony, and to see my in "my natural environment". God, we had a lot of fun. It was just nice to be around him for more than a couple of hours. So I get him for like a week and a half. It was glorious. I'm just excited to have him around me for more than a couple of hours an afternoon.

But, I'm gonna get back to what it seems is my life these days: studying. And trying to be a good person.